Friday, January 02, 2009

Is there anybody out there?

I know I have been gone a while...much needed time spent on school. Just wondering if talking to myself online is still worth it? What do you think?

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

The first day of the rest of my life

Ok well that might be a little mellow dramatic but today I started running and training for the 10K in Boston next year. Rebecca has set me up with a running strategy to get ready in a year and I can't tell you how hard today was. I didn't even know how much my body could hurt from trying to run...ok and I use the word run loosely...very loosely as this was more like jogging or an exaggerated walk. I don't know that Rebecca will want to be seen running or as will now call it jonning with me. I do know that many teenagers were mocking me today, laughing as I did my jonning around the track while they were playing tennis during gym class.

So I will be back out on the track tomorrow, I think I am going to go a little earlier so I don't have to worry about my children screaming at me as I am jonning around the track trying to look like I am not dying and trying not to scream loudly myself. I think one time when I was going around I saw death only a few steps behind me, you think I am kidding, I will attempt to catch him on film next time....although I have been told to bring my cellphone out so if I have a heart attack someone will find me, such confidence people have in my abilities.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Time time where are you going?

I knew this year was going to be hard. I knew that taking Jacob to school and what not was going to be an addition to my day, but I was not prepared for the amount of driving and time out of my day it would take. I am trying to find creative solutions for getting my school work done all while driving all over God's green earth. I think that if I keep reminding myself that it will all be ok if I just "keep swimming" I will make it. Just keep telling me that so I don't forget. ok? deal!

I am also excited because I am going to starting a program with my SIL, Rebecca, to get ready for a 10K in October 2009. I am totally and completely terrified! I am excited by the prospect of doing something I have never done before but the thought of failure or letting Rebecca down is frightening. She has sent me what I need to do to begin my training and I am starting this week. I think in order to keep me honest and to keep me going; I am going to use this blog as a place to talk about my training and post my progress. I think I will take my picture honest picture and track not only my weight loss but how well I can keep up with my training program too. Let me know if you have any ideas, I mean any help in this would be great. And if you see Rebecca remind her she has to run WITH ME IN THE 10K!!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Old people and Gravity don't mix

Not in any way do I find this funny, but my Grandmother has a habit of forgetting how old she is. The woman will be 90 in November and well, she is old. I think someone needs to remind her just a little. Her phone was ringing the other day and she fell and cut the back of her head on her air conditioner. I am not sure how she did it? I mean she had to flip on her back and somehow stretch out across the room because the air conditioner is no where near the phone. I am still not sure how she did it, but she has a TON of staples in her head. I am worried about her, she is forgetting all kinds of things that really should be remember. I just hope that she does not do it again or do something worse. Old people and Gravity don't mix!!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Strangers can be nice

So I took the kids to Friendly's Ice Cream the other day while everyone else was in Boston setting Josh and Kevin up in their new place. It was a crazy day and I didn't feel like taking the kids downtown when I knew they would take forever to finish the bunkbeds late and dinner would run long, I had no desire to sit with three kids and try and make them happy while all that went on. So we stayed at my house and as a treat I took the kids out for a treat.

So we went out and got all settled. It was a nice meal, the kids were great and we had fun...the kids ate well and really I don't think we had any real issues. After we were done with our meal, everyone got their own ice cream. It was really way too much ice cream for us all, and I got boxes...yes I took the ice cream home, I am cheap...ok maybe not but I really didn't want to throw any of our leftovers when she came back with our boxes I asked about our check. She said we didn't have one, someone in the restaurant had bought our dinner, and they left so I have no idea who they are...sometimes people just amaze me....Thank you who ever you are you definitely made me smile, I was feeling low and that really picked me up for the rest of the day.

Pass on the kindness...go strangers!!!

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Keep reminding me I am not a quitter!

I really want to quit school...I know I know I just started so how could I want to give up so quickly? I am just having a really hard time with one of my professors and it reminds me of why I didn't continue with my last course of study. I guess I am over reacting, but that is why I sit at home in front of the computer and cry...yup cry...

Friday, July 25, 2008

What I wanted to say....

but I didn't!!!!

Immigration is a subject that brings out some interesting feelings, mostly strong, out of everyone, not a single person in our country can say they do not have an opinion. I have logged in everyday to read people's responses and my mother has always told me if you don't have something nice to say than don't say anything. Unfortunately my grade is based on how I respond to others, and this particular thread has disturbed me, really angered me. I have not said much, but I guess I have to, I am really upset by how some people's ignorance is being shown. I really thought this class was to discuss Ethnic and Social Relations, how this has impacted our country and how we can make changes in the system. I was not expecting that we would be doing nothing more than attempt to uphold the status quo and make ourselves feel better about how we fit into the fabric of America.

I have read all of our text and I am surprised that more people have not yet began to either echo or at least acknowledge the sentiment. There really is white privilege in our country, we really do have a long way to come in order to equalize the status of everyone in our country. The questions that are posed by our professor seem an attempt to get us all to think out of our comfort zone and maybe come to a different conclusion than we used to, learn from our text. But I still see a lot of people simply strengthening their own opinion with out any real data or information to back them up. It seems as though stereotypes are being strengthened and not broken down, our threaded discussions are only proving how not racist we are or how we are not responsible for the way our country is.

I know we are all entitled to our opinion, but in a class like this, in a field such as Social Work, isn't it our job to attempt to be understanding and use the system that is at our disposal to make changes in peoples lives, how can we take those kinds of steps for people if we are blinded by our own bigotry.

I said something much tamer....and way lamer!!! Sometimes censorship is a good thing, just makes me hurt on the inside that I can't let everyone in my class know how I really feel...ugh!